i am down. disapointed? hurmm. my results in PKBS 1 are like wow, err, low? teacher, can i sit for the exam again? huh. i know, it's impossible. heyy, i know it's only the first test of the year but. never mind, hee. and i am so jealous with classmates who got so high results! jealous in a good way laa. hoho. i won't just go to them, and say, "heyy, why did you scored so high? i hate youuuu!". scary huh? reminder guys,Yen is not that cruel. *wekk*
i am jealous in the sense that why they can, but why i can't. and seriously, i am proud of Noor Amni Mohamed!! highest in Bio wohh.*clap3* well, most of the other subjects are grabbed by our class's Einstein (new nickname. :P) Yong, *clap3*
anyway, last year's form 5 seniors already received their results and we were in the hall too, when they got their results. the mood of the hall was super duper tense when waiting for the results you know. even i felt the nervousness. wonder how it'll be next year. some cried when they got the results. some scream. some were speechless. wonder how will i react next year. oh, maybe i'll faint before i even see the slip? haha. :P but it really, really gave some effect to my brain. hello brain, WAKE UP! i don't want to regret my results next year, no, i want to be happy and proud with it. so now, i have to work for it. like Sir Imran always say, "do your work sincerely" :) yes sir, sincerely.
i want to keep working hard. i want success.
ookkyy, have to get to be. having saturday and night classes now.
hey, i am awake. yah, of course awake from sleep. ish. no, what i'm talking about is awake that I AM SITTING FOR SPM THIS YEAR. wow, what a statement. serious? :P sorry, but that's what i'm feeling lately. our awesome class teacher, Pn. Wan Nurizan distributed the forms and after so much hassle, we had send the forms. i'm taking 10 subjects. some of my classmates are taking 9. some 10. some 11. oh, Joe, borrow your quote! "different people, different perspective" :)
that day during Sejarah exam, i was kind of blurr. hey, i am not good in remembering facts and dates and what people in the past do although i respect them. well, not my best subject. but, have to love it also right? so, hey, YEN LOVES SEJARAH! :D hahaa. oh now, back to the story. as i was stressed, i closed the paper and just sat still. just looking at the cover. then,
"sobah al-nur" *screaming*
"nahnu bikhair ya ustazah" *shouting*
it was ustazah Naimah's voice and a group of students, most probably form 1. well, i can sense their excitement in their voices. HEHE *show off* how i had missed the moments. screaming on top of my lungs with classmates just to answer a teacher's questions. or reading a passage together out loud. you guys never did this before? never mind. well i did. HEHE *wide grin*
uh, being in upper secondary is not easy. especially when it's time for dates with mr. biology, mr. chemy, mr. physic and mr. addmath. although i fall for them, its not easy to become their lovers, okay? :P changing glares and confused looks with friends is an official duty, haha. of course, raising hands to ask for double, triple, fortle (err, is there such a word?) explanation from teachers is our expertise. :)
oh, seriously missed those what we normally consider silly kid actions. sob, sob, sob. we all always regret why on earth didn't we appreciate the past. always regret why we did not do this. why we did not do that. why we did this. why we did that. to think about these, is something that has no ending. don't you guys think so?
time is precious. this quote is forever everywhere. but how many people is actually applying it we don't know. as the matter of fact, i don't always spend my time in a correct way. :) but just have to keep trying! shouldn't i? or should i say, shouldn't we?
p/s: dear all, this post is a self-reflection.
dear me and every single 2012 SPM candidate, we are sitting for SPM okay? never ignore the fact. realise that this is our time. OURS. fight for success! haiyaa! lets enjoy our struggle and keep faith. :)
see my header and background? hehe. Nur Bazilah Rasdi punya kerja laa. :P hey, she's one of my besties u know! well, her blog is gorgeous, like her! hehe. click on her name to go to her blog! superb one, i guarantee. :))) anyway, thanks a mile dear Baz! i'm not sure when did u find time to do me a header! ni sayang ni. hee :P
btw, my background may change. still looking for the perfect one. yup, i memang banyak songeh! *wide grin*
oky! it's pass midnight! oh, i really want to write. but, huh. time constrain! T.T many things to share actually! :) tommorow maybe? hee.
hey, it's HOLIDAY!! no. 'HOLIDAY'! do notice that i put it in brackets. i have a week full of classes!!! well, minus wednesday, friday and saturday! huhuu. wait, think will have classes on wednesday too! uhno, uhno. conclusion? i'll fall flat by the end of the holiday. pathetic? well, that's life!! just go on!! think positive and keep going! :)