FROM SENIORS TO JUNIORS- ASASI PINTAR

Hi there wonderful people! 

Okay, this is just going to be a short post, just to serve as a notification, or something that may benefit some of you guys (and girls) who are actually searching for information about.. UKM ASASIpintar Foundation Program. 

I know, it'll be so hard to find anything related to this course huh? 

So, I'm gonna leave a FB page link here. 

 https://www.facebook.com/pages/Program-ASASIpintar/550787455039977

Or you can just go search 'Program ASASIpintar' in FB. 

Oh yeah, and a few of my friends actually blogged about the program too. So, if you are excited, try to search for them okay.

Take note on this post though: 

"Hi and a very good day everyone! 

First of all, congratulations as you manage to obtain the chance to enter this foundation program under UKM. This page is a platform for seniors to share their experiences and to try answer inquiries from our juniors.

However, the team behind the page is now compiling common questions that juniors are curious to know about this program and will be answering them soon. So, we would like to ask for some time before we release any posts. Let's just say that this page is 'under construction'.

Stay tuned! Thanks!

Sincerely, 

Excited senior."

So, give the team a bit of time and yeap, hopefully your inquires will be answered :)

Feel free to approach me on FB as well or you can comment under this post or you can ask in the chat bar at the side there as well. However, I do not promise a swift on-the-spot reply but will reply as soon as i can okay. But bear in mind that, my batch's experience is not the same with the following batch's experience. So yeah.  

Got to go! Thanks for reading! Toodles :)

Signing off, 

Yen.

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Looking Back

Hi there.

I can't believe it's mid-semester break now. The previous post about the start of second semester was like... two months ago. I think I better slap myself to accepting this reality.

I've just finished arranging and separating my Infection and Immunity notes to a few parts; immunology, bacteria, viruses, fungi, parasites, self-learning packages and problem based-learning cases. This module carries 5 credit hours, with 21 lectures. I think this module has the most lectures so far, phew. You know what, I think I'm writing this now is to just scare myself to fully use this week's time. I have end of module examination on the first day after the break. *creepy music*

People say, being in medical school is about pass or fail. Yea, it's true. To pass is not easy. Sometimes you'll come out satisfied with what you had answered, but at the end the results is a no-no. Results are unexpected. Then you'll find yourself feeling down, like really down and wonder are you really capable of this. I am not trying to scare any potential juniors off. Trust me. I've been there, done that. Have a heart of steel, have a mind of positive ions. Please, have people who supports and reminds you of God, hope and faith. Know that you are not alone, really.

Yikes. Enough being the miss-know-everything now Yen. The purpose of this post is to write on the first half of semester 2. I am incapable of writing everything down I've experienced though. Let's try to do this chronologically by referring to my phone camera.

New hostel. Ikea carrot plushie. Healthy lifestyle. Everyday walk. 

New year clothes hunt. Johor asam laksa. Eyeglo. 

New jogging place. Taman Tasik Permaisuri. 

PBL 20. Group leader. 

Chinese New Year. Gummy bears. Family. Cousins. Yellow shirts. Photos. Fireworks. 

Musical drama. English festival. Narrator. 

Kamal bookstore. Book vouchers. New book. 

T-super. Grey. Dodge ball. Epic slip and fall. Sunburn. 

CESMED. Business. Inspiring talks. Team. 

Clinical Science. New. 

Academic Com II. English. Funny lecturer.

College dinner. Oscar night. Choir. 

Human Genetics. Border. Improvement. 

Insurgent. Dream catcher. 

Peace and humanity. Prognosis. Sekolah Bukan Penjara. Telegraf Cinta USD.

PAP UKM KL. Dedication gifts. Orders. Money, Delivery. 

Ching ming. Ancestors. Graveyard visit. Prayers.  

Aseptic techniques. Hand wash. Scrubs. Surgery gowns.

Community visit. Spastic center Petaling Jaya. Ice cream. Heena. Phone calls. Pre-visit. Challenging. Visit. Blue tshirts. Goodies bag. Inspiring. Grateful. April's Fool. Manhattan Fish Market. Shooting. Video. Report. 

Boat noodle. Fruit salad. Green tea. Canvas bag.

Infection and Immunity module. Labs, lots. Fun. Drawings. 

Psychiatry ward visit. Jauhi stigma, luaskan paradigma. Musical chair. Chocolate jar. 

MEDebate. Meetings. Numerous FB chat groups. Perhubungan luar. Networking. Meetings. Rehearsal. Black. Runners. Swing team. New views. Emcee. 

Sun. Rain. Fever. No more teh wangi please. Mood swings. Pimples. Eyebags. Music. Food. Clouds. 

So, that's it. Feeling satisfied. Now let's go to bed.

Thanks for reading, toodles :)

Signing off, 

Yen

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Start of Something New

Hello.

Tomorrow is the first day of second semester. Holidays is over. New hostel is great. Well, although I think still need more furbishing and the cafe, study room is still not ready yet. But anyway, grateful that this is really nearer to the pre-clinical complex. At least no need to catch early buses with puffy eyes, haha. Tried the shortcut route just now in the evening. It'll probably take us about 10 mins but when you are clad in baju kurungs and nak kawal ayu lagi (lol), just estimate it as a half-hour walk.

No doubt, I will miss the holidays (so much) and miss home too. I am happy with whatever I had done for the few weeks. Loads of fun and loads of love received. Thank you lovely people. You know whoever you are *wink*

The only thing is the past semester's results is still not out yet. Perhaps tomorrow.. I promised myself, and also perhaps hypnotizing myself to find something positive about the results. Either way, self-improvement is always needed.

New semester. New spirit. May everything goes well. Wishing myself and everyone with new semesters a very happy semester. Let's look forward for it!

P/S: I can't wait for Chinese New Year holidays though, haha.

Thanks for reading and toodles :)

-Yen

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2014 Recap

2014. A year of goodbyes and changes.

Hi there, hope everyone is perfectly fine. If not fine, then just okay, alright? :)

This post is just to recap and share what I have been through in 2014. So that memories won't fade away. You know the feeling of wanting to hold on, on pieces of memories that someone has given to you? Takut. Takut sangat nak lepaskan. Perhaps it's the guilt of not being able to keep the memory alive. 

Around April or May last year, I thought that saying goodbye to Eximius was the hardest thing to do. We cried a lot, well I did. Tears of sadness because we know that things are not going to be the same again. But there was no pain. We promise each other that we will keep this friendship strong, keep the  Eximius spirit alive, no matter how far we are apart from each other. 

So that's my first hard goodbye of the year.

The next few months of holidays were filled with choices. Especially choices which I will be responsible for a lifetime. What do I want to do as a human on earth? What degree do I want to take? Which way? Thank God for my supportive parents, family, lecturers and friends. I went for two interviews in UKM, both medical and dentistry faculties, not knowing what results to expect. Pray and tawakal, they said.

I spent two to three months of the holidays in this skyscraper city. Had a working experience. Dear uncle wants me to experience the real world and not to be confined in my thoughts of this 'perfect' world. Eventually , he got my a job in a fast food outlet somewhere. A few jabs and tests, got my uniform and off I go. Managers and colleagues, both local and immigrants were the people I interacted for the few months. Unexpected new friendship. Nice customers (perhaps bad ones too, but who am I to judge). Long working schedule. Not to forget, a peep to the world of reality. My comment? Not bad huh.

The rush. From waking up in the wee hours of the morning (puffy eyes are a norm) to attending long queues. Dragged both my feet back on the very first day. 

The perfection. All the procedures that each cashier has to follow. Eye contacts. Checked. Colgate smile. Checked. Key in orders. Checked. Repeat orders. Checked. Suggest add-ons. Checked. 

Not to forget. Getting degree admission results in this city. With friends at the airport. I guess the whole airport turned to us when we screamed. Alas, this is s one in a lifetime shout out. Throw all you 'ayu-ness' and petite attitude for a while Yen. *laugh* Called the whole family to share. God, thank you.

A little celebration at a little cafe that night. Still remember how it was. I can't forget how excited was his face. I'm just his niece but it seemed that he told everyone he met on that day. He wanted to post the results on FB but I won't let him. He was searching on how to blur the IC but I begged him not to. Which he finaly agreed at the end, yeay. Perhaps the world was good to me at that time but not others. But now, to think back, perhaps I should just let him pass. Starbucks after dinner with 'Congratulations Yen' on the cup, the night was just perfect. 

When it is time to say goodbyes again, my heart ache. We just need to take charge of our future alright? Resignation letter. Checked. Donuts for everyone. Checked. Thank you wishes and hugs. Checked. 

Flew back to Kelantan for preparation. Shopping shopping shopping.

Drove down to KL with parents, pit stopped at grandparents' house. Thanksgiving prayers. Checked. Little celebration at kampung house. Checked. Grandma's scrumptious food. Checked.

"Ah Ma and Ah Kong don't know whether we can wait as long as 5 years to see you graduate."
There was no definite answer for that. Just, have faith perhaps.

I wouldn't want to describe my degree life here yet. Just know that I've lost someone very dear to me in November. I haven't really put the word 'late' every time I talk about him. See, all the 'he' in this post all refers to him. Okay maybe this is confusing, sorry. And I wouldn't want to talk about what happened, how he went and stuffs. Just hope that he's up there, smiling :)

Saying goodbye is hard. But you will feel better when you know that you will be seeing the person again. Want to know what's harder? Saying goodbye, knowing that you will never see the person ever again.

Perhaps this post is sort of 'berterabur', sorry. Just want to make clear my head a bit and slowly start writing back. No promises though. Let's see how life is, haha. Thanks and toodles.

 -Yen

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KAPAI

Hujan makin lebat. Kanak-kanak kecil yang bermandi hujan di tepi pondok tadi sudah berlari pulang, riuh sekali mereka gelak ketawa. Namun, kelibat dua insan ini masih kelihatan. Seorang bersila, seorang bersimpuh. Senyap. Merenung jauh, masing-masing tenggelam dalam lamunan sendiri. 

Si jejaka mengambil langkah, memecahkan kesunyian antara mereka. 

"Keyakinan sebelah pihak tiada gunanya."

Si gadis mengetap bibir lalu menjawab;

"Sebagaimana bertepuk sebelah tangan tiada bunyinya?"

Senyap. 

Si jejaka cuba menduga;

"Ya. Dan saya masih tercari, adakah tepukan itu hanya sebelah tangan."

Tertunduk lemah, si gadis menjawab;

"Jawapannya mungkin sudah terbentang depan mata, mungkin juga perlu dicari lagi. Lumrah manusia. Jawapan ya, tidak ataupun tidak pasti. Sering kali bukanlah jawapan yang abadi." 

Si gadis berhenti seketika lalu menyambung katanya;

"Seperti lalang ditiup angin, sering berubah."

Saat itu, si jejaka memandang si gadis lalu bersuara;

"Saya pernah bersuara betapa lemahnya saya dalam pencarian sebegitu rupa. Mungkin sudah jumpa. Mungkin juga tidak. Tapi saya pasti. Tepukan ITU. Bukan sekadar lalang. Punya hati kuat rasakan. Semangat itu."

Si gadis melepaskan keluhan kecil. Bukan tidak mahu bersuara, cuma tidak tahu apa yang harus dikatakan, tidak tahu apa yang perlu diluahkan. 

Si jejaka terus menyoal;

"Mampukah tangan dicapai andai benar ada jarak?"

Senyuman kecil mula terukir di bibir si gadis. Renungan si jejaka dibalas, lalu si gadis menjawab;

"Jarak hanyalah halangan konkrit yang mengaburi mata, yang menguji jiwa."

Tersenyum, si jejaka menambah; 

"Jarak itu subjektif yang menguji kognitif diri. Apa yang perlu cuma kepercayaan, kekuatan paling agung."

Kedua-duanya senyum, merenung ke dalam hujan yang semakin lebat dan terus membisu. Mungkin segala yang perlu diluahkan, sudah diluahkan. Tiada lagi sesalan mahupun persoalan yang menjajah fikiran.

Artwork by Fakhrurrazi

Nota kaki: Hasil perahan otak bersama teman. *peace* 

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Hi there. Sorry for this sudden appearance, just want to share this, hihi. I just came back from the moon, haha. Thanks for reading! :)

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RANDOM FLOW OF EMOTIONS

Hi there readers. *wave* 

I had been disappearing for so long but no worries, I still visit this blog once in a while. A few times in a month maybe. Well, things had been going on too fast. Too fast that I can't afford to pause down. Too fast that I struggle to keep standing. Too fast that I can't really catch the moments. Too fast that I am now at the edge of this ASASIpintar foundation program. Is it too fast or it is just me? 

I just got back from the cafeteria. Put my back down and gave myself a little bit of the comfort of my bed. I am suppose to finish my lab reports and assignments now but something triggers my fingers to write this post. When I am alone, I can't help but to think that my life in asasi is coming to an end already. Previously, i thought I would be jumping, counting the days happily because some parts of the life here does not treat me so well. But apparently, I can't bear the thought of this life ending. I can't bear the thought of leaving these people who were once strangers but now my friends, companions, mentors, motivators and the list goes on. Until now, I still wonder how we can all get so close. Different state? Different background? That just makes us more unique. I believe the Eximians had already tear the barrier of difference long ago and I am glad that everything works out for us.

There, everyone is so happy.

Everyone is currently busy with the research project which carries a massive weightage of 6 credit hours. I wonder if I am able to cope with it. We had just finish our 6 weeks program with an orphanage and I seriously learnt a long of things from it. Maybe I should elaborate further next time. Hmm. Believe it or not, this week, starting form tomorrow, is our final week for formal lectures. The following week will be our study week. And the finals will be starting on 31st of March. After 4 papers, we will have one final week for our research presentation and yeap, the grand dinner. This constant reminder of our schedule reflects we only have so little time together. Minus the weekends, minus the busy days. How much time can we spend time together? Curi masa here and there would be the answer for now I guess. :)

I guess the worst thing that I could do was to be the first person to cry after our final EXIMIUS 1314 dinner. Hopefully I won't. Hopefully.  

P/s: This short, random post is just for me to let my emotions flow, so it's a lil' bit unorganized. Sorry.

Dear Eximians of Eximius 1314, we do this! Let's LOL more :D

Love, 

Soo Yen, the Susu of Eximius 1314 :)

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NOVEMBER 'DRAMAS'

Hi everyone :)

Well, at last I manage to write something tonight, hehe. I actually had to promise myself to finish doing a few of my assignments and homework before I can write this post. Life, right? Or not I will addicted to blogging until I forgot the reality of the world around me. Hurm, reality? How do you know the world we are living now is a reality or not? Gosh, this is the message of AP201's movie that day. But interesting question isn't it? Cikgu Iqbal, my last semester Physics sir did mentioned about this once and left all of us (or was it just me?) wondering about it but the thought vanished itself into the thin air after that.

November has been such a month. It seemed long, considering that I had my mid-semester break in it and start my second semester in November too.

November is the month of joy and bitterness. A happy goodbye to semester 1 final exam. A sad ending to the solid existence of AP101, my first semester class. There were just too much memories that I can't even list it down here. Every moment is a memory. I remember how we plead for the plan to combine 3 classes to 2 classes for semester 2 to be canceled. For me, it wasn't about class bias, it was the act of trying to defend something we love. Yah, love. Although it seemed impossible for such strong bond to be created in only 5 months, I think we managed to prove the world wrong. I still remember what Ze Song once said, "Maybe now we can only see the negative side of this thing, maybe in the future, we can see the bright side of it." After that, I tried to console myself with what he said and enjoyed the last few days of semester 1. At the same time, everyone hoped for a miracle and we did this hash tag a few days before the registration. #hopeformiracle

However, the plan did not change and we had to let go. The name list was released on the first day of the new semester and left everyone of us shocked. I had to admit I was quite naive by thinking that we will get a surprise on that day, which is the news of canceling the new class arrangement. But that seems to remain as an imagination. 8 of us, including myself is in AP102 while the other 5 is in AP202. I felt like I was drowning when I saw the name list and my friends faces, especially Adibah's and Syazwi's. I felt so useless. There was nothing we, or I could do. Everyone need to accept the reality and move on. Move on. I promise to always, always keep the spirit of QuiteOnSet (QOS) alive.

I edited these during the one week holiday :)

Enough about this, or I'll ended up teary.

November was also the month that I get to see my family after so long. T.T I had to travel from KL to Kelantan, Kelantan to Perak and then Perak to Kelantan again and lastly, Kelantan to KL. Although it was a little tiring but it was worth it. I get to spend time with my grandparents, parents, sister and it was so awesome to be at home. The atmosphere, the smell of  my bed, the home-cooked food and of course, the love. Now I know the real feeling of 'going home'. If only I could stay home longer..

Thanks Pa and Mummy for belated birthday treat :')

November was also the month I get the opportunity to visit my dear school, SMK Bachok. After leaving for UKM last May, I never had the chance to visit and that one day at school that day was such a fun one. Thanks to Bazilah, Wani and Aishah for accompanying me. I understand that the others couldn't come along, you girls must be busy right. Well, putting that aside, it was so nice to catch up with my teachers, friends and juniors. Everyone was so welcoming and I was completely engaged in conversations after conversations with the teachers. It was like stopping from one station to another, haha.

Baz and Wani :)

November was also the month of fun! We, EXIMIUS 1314 (our batch's name) had our movie premiere on the first week of our new semester. We invited Permata juniors and also lecturers. This event was sort of a continuation form the last semester so everyone worked according to last semester's classes. *grin* Plus, we did a sort of charity baking, lead by Hazril. We had to shop for the ingredients, and on that particular premiere day, we baked from morning until noon. It was the first time in my whole life, doing such an intensive baking. Felt like we were working in a bakery, hehehe. But it was fun, like seriously fun? Then, after decorating and packing the carrot cupcakes and chocolate oat cookies, we changed into our clean attire for the function that evening. Everyone in our batch was supposed to either were blue or maroon so I matched a short blue dress with my skinny, hee. OH OH, THE RESPOND WAS AWESOME. There were quite a lot of audiences and the other two classes did some sales and gave out bookmarks to everyone. Our movie was the first one to go and as bias as this will sound (anyway, nobody cares *gaya Cikgu Arho*), I LOVE 'YOU AND EYES' SO MUCH. Haha. The second one was 'Reality' and the third one was 'Bleeding Rose'. Every move has its own strong point but at last we still need to have one winner right? And it went to *drum roll* 'Reality'! So, QOS didn't win. But nobody cares. We already gave it our best shot and the making of it was the real prize. Remember what Travis Brody said to Miley in Hannah Montana The Movie? 'Life's a climb but the view is great'. The way I see it, the making of the movie is the actual essence behind this whole this assignment. It was hard and time-consuming but it was one of the things that made everyone of us grew closer to each other. Oh and a very big thank you to all our Permata juniors who acted with us, thanks for our extras, especially our 007 agent, Izzat :)

our carrot cupcake *drool*

QuietOnSet Production Crew

November was also the month of revelation. I got my semester 1 result on the 20th. We had to checked it online and man, it was so nerve-wreaking. My heart was beating like dup dap dup dap. Okay, wasn't that the normal way a heart suppose to sound? Hahaha. (Soo Yen buat lawak ke? *Zaid's style*) I can't checked it alone so i went to join a few others in the TV room. I was teary, and that was before I checked my results okay, I was just so tensed! I got news about others results and that made me even tenser haiyaa. Then, finally they managed to persuade me to check too and that time was maybe about 1.30 am in the morning. My results was.. okay? Not gempak but still okay! I'm not going to tell it here, hehe. :P Thank God. I guess that's the best for me. I will learn from it and hopefully, I'll change this semester :)The best thing is (if I'm not mistaken), everyone in our batch got 3.50 above! And we got 3 people with 4.0. Hopefully administrators and lecturers are also happy! *peace sign* Congratulations dear EXIMIUS 1314! Let's work harder this semester and keep it up, up, up! :D

Whoa. What a long post! This is what happen when I conceal things for too long, cewahh. I want to upload more photos but so lazy and the speed of internet in my room is just so-so T.T

My new class, AP102 is nice. Actually everyone already know each other because there is only 41 of us in a batch. It's just that the feeling is different. But no worries! I will get to know everyone closer and we will be bonded by the spirit of friendship and EXIMIUS 1314. I'm getting along 'okay'ly' with everyone already I think but can improve right? Yes Yen, hwaiting!

One more thing, I really want to do better this semester. No matter how big are the challenges that are coming to tear you down, get loaded and fight back. Believe in yourself and fight! Haiyak! *side kick*

Omg, I gotta get going. Planing to go for a jog tomorrow but wonder can I wake up or not, aiyoo. Good night guys! Eh, good morning! Bye! Have a nice Sunday! :)

P/S: BYE NOVEMBER *flying kises* and HI DECEMBER *wave*

Credits to Grandpa Google *wink*

Credits to Grandpa Google, i'm hungry :(

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A MINI COMEBACK

Hi there! Hi everybody :)

I know this is weird, me jumping out of a sudden, dusting of this dusty blog, after such a long time. Let me check, the last post was on 28th May, a day before I registered for ASASIpintar UKM. Well, that was whoa, one long duration right? I mean around 5 months ago? And still, I am still alive, perfectly breathing, thank God. 

It's almost 3 in the morning, the air is perfectly still but my eyes won't shut, I just don't know why so I decided to finish this business of mine, which is updating this blog after requests from my fans hahaha. To make it less formal, I regard it as recalling how my life had been, for these few months after the turning point where I call myself a foundation student. These few months were not perfect, I did not found myself in a bliss nor in a state of unhappiness. One thing for sure, I did not regret any moment of it because each moment had been so precious. People often say that experience is the best teacher and I guess I need to salute the first person who quoted that. I found out that these hard few months taught me lessons after lessons that made me grew. I guess I turned 18 with a good brain. Not to say that I am already matured or a grown-up now, (well, you won't really know when you are matured) but I guess I did changed. Okay, let's call it 'change'.

For the first time in my life, I need to stay at a hostel. For the first time too, I need to manage my life, my food, my clothes and lots of things while maintaining focus in my study. It seems impossible five months ago. But now, I'm already enjoying my semester break, relaxing before having an awesome second semester start next week. Of course, i did stumbled a few times before I manage to end this semester. Many times actually, many. I am not perfect and I wasn't the top top top student who can perfectly meet the deadly deadlines, who can manage the pressure of scoring well in everything. I worked hard for it but sometimes things just won't work out. There were days where you need to control your tears from falling down, ignore that bump in your throat and lie to yourself that everything is going to be okay although you secretly knew that things won't be. There were days that were filled with sunshine and you could just lay down the bed and catch the sun rays that enter through the window and just breathe. Honestly, I am grateful for both; the rainy days taught me memorable lessons while the sunny days gave me sweet memories.

Here's an example. I still remember there was this crazy day where I accidentally slept at 8 at night and woke up at 5 the next morning. The next day was the last day before my study week and just imagine the assignments that I need to pass up on that day. Actually I did not slept the night before, due to certain abnormalities hehe but certainly I can't forgive myself when I woke up that time. Missed calls, messages was the only thing that filled my phone screen and I didn't even heard any beep or ringing! I guess I seriously had a good night sleep and now I need to face a bad day. The first thing that came into my mind was I am going to die. I will be a dead meat. Half of the work was not done and I need to submit most of them before 12 noon as it was Friday and I have a proposal presentation which was too important to risk. I spent a few minutes wiping off my tears and assembled myself before I accept the reality that hey, I need to be strong for today and I need to try as hard, as hard as possible to finish things up since it was my own fault that I slept a.k.a. faint. 

So, I did things one by one and the day was such a day. I was rushing here, rushing there, laptop on, laptop off and in most of the lessons on that day, my mind wasn't there, only my body was. My mind was busy calculating time, finding strategies on how to find time between the lectures and decide which should be my priority. At the end of the day, I manage to finish all but one of them was not submitted on time and the lecturer was understanding and she gave me more time and I submitted it in the evening. By the way, the presentation was okay, my lecturer pointed out things to be improved but at least, I wasn't smashed or crushed at the end of my presentation. Honestly, that day was one of the bad days I had and it could rank first I think. I could barely breathe, most of the time I chocked through my tears but my friends helped me through that day, a lot. Thanks so much guys. The feeling of that day was so not pleasant and negative thoughts were occupying my mind, it was really hard to think and no no no, I don't want to have that feeling again. Give me another big teddy bear but I just can't bear the dreadful feeling of waiting everything to be okay. Please no, hopefully never again.

This incident had certainly taught me lots of things. The lesson, 'not to procrastinate' was deeply embedded and the day was a solid prove of the disaster that procrastinating can lead too. I learnt to be more responsible. I overslept and yes, I need to face the consequences. 'Sendiri buat, sendiri tanggunglah'. Responsibility can be scary sometimes but it all depends on yourself. Face it like a person and you will be rewarded. Be rewarded in the sense that things will be okay at the end. For my case, I manage to finish everything almost 'okay-ly'.

So yeap. This is my mini comeback. This post is to boost my desire to write again! I did said that I want to share my life in ASASIpintar here right? But didn't manage to do that yet hehe. I am not sure whether this post gets side-tracked or whatever but I haven't blabber randomly for so long already. Forgive me if this makes you yawn or what hahhaa. Well, getting a little sleepy now. I should sleep. 

Till then, thanks for reading.

 Although I am not sure whether is anyone reading this or not. Sigh, I am such an irresponsible blogger.

Okay, byeeee :)

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THE ROAD TO ASASI PINTAR

Hello people! Yen is in the house! How is everyone doing?

Sorry I didn't keep this blog updated. Yeah, I was busy but most of the time I was lazy. Like most of my regular readers know (eh, ada readers ke tak actually ni?), I was a underundergraduate that just laze around the house. However,this state is sort of coming to its end because I will be entering a Foundation in Science in UKM, named Asasi Pintar soon. And the soon is actually tomorrow already hehee. I am now in KL. My papa suggested we get here earlier a day so that it won't be that rushing you see. Being early is more awesome than being late right? 

I actually never thought I would be offered to enter this because I had never thought of applying this in my UPU. Actually before the result, I had completely put my hopes in applying and in the end getting a Jabatan Perkhidmatan Awam (JPA) scholarship in medic. However my hopes were sort of crushed when I found out that JPA won't be giving scholarships for post-SPM students in medic anymore. They only offered engineering courses to German, France, Japan and Korea. I did applied and got shortlisted for the interview and went but that is totally not what I want to talk about in this post. 

Back to the point. I decided to find another alternative to do pursue my dreams in medic. Thank God both of my parents understood my passion and they helped me through it. Thanks papa and mummy. :') There are only 3 asasi that I was eligible to apply which is Asasi Pintar UKM, Asasi Perubatan UPNM and Asasi Sains Pertanian UPM. So, I put those three in my list of choice in the UPU. My first choice was Asasi Pintar UKM. So, when the interview result can be checked around umm, end of April, I managed to get shortlisted for Ujian Saringan UKM 2. I was thrilled because at last I have something solid to fight for and not just dreaming. Yes, dreams are important but it is still vital for us to fight to make that dream a reality. Do remember that people :)

The ujian saringan was held in SMK Sultan Sulaiman, Kuala Terengganu. So I had to go down all the way to Terengganu with my mummy to sit for it. It was a hassle actually but well, you can't expect everything to just be laid down right in front of your eyes. The duration of the test in 2 hours and half. If I am not mistaken, there was around 15 modules of different types of IQ questions. Yep, the questions vary from IQ stuffs to Mathematics, logical questions, ethical questions and also some general knowledge. Some questions may looks simple but actually you have to think quite deep about it. It was like reading behind the lines. The sooner you finished it, the better. But you have to answer them correctly though. The key is to answer it fast and minimize our mistakes. The last thing you need is to be nervous and have sweaty palms because this test is computerised. And thus, it is really hard to not accidentally click a wrong answer just because you can't really control the mouse with sweaty palms! The competition there was kind of big because err the kids are mostly straight A's plus and I was like omg omg, will I stand a chance? :O But I just answer it lah. haha. Well, this message was originally from my sister because she knew more about this Pintar program than me, hiks. Cheers to Wee Soo May! XD

After some ages, haha, the UPU result is finally announced. Thank God I got it. I remembered a got a little teary and screamed after that. I really felt a huge huge wave of relive. :) Then, I had to download the forms and agreements and have to do things accordingly so that there won't be a problem at the registration. Another relive was I found out that Asasi students will get fiance help from the ministry so it lift the burden of my parents a little. The only thing is that this Asasi Pintar can be a little expensive compared to other courses,  more than a thousand ringgit. But based on the chances that the students will be getting like chances to go overseas, the payment is worth it. I had to make a Bank Islam account and use it to pay for the fees. I also had to go for medical checkup. A little advice about medical checkup. If you want it to be cheap, be quick to book a place at the government clinics or hospital or you won't stand a chance. If not, you will ended up being like me. I didn't know that the procedure has to be like that so the booking was already full. I had to do mine in a private hospital and it does cost much. Sob sob. FYI, there are quite many forms to be filled and things to be sahkan. The worst thing is if there is any mistake, it will cost my future --"

Oh and I got a lot of questions about what Asasi Pintar is. I myself am not sure too, haha. Because there were too little people talking about it in blogs or forums. It is a quite new program. Maybe my batch is the second or third or something. That's why people are not yet informed, including me. What I know is that, it is just another Foundation in Science or Asasi Pintar. Pintar is just a name because it is under this PINTAR program by Datin Rosmah. The level is maybe a little higher or something because it is said to be leveled like the John-Hopkins University. Some said it is a hectic, fast-track foundation. The competition is high due to the qualifications. We will have to learn other subjects as well. If lucky, you'll get sponsors like JPA after you finish this foundation. Or you can enter UKM for your degree. I remembered someone told me that Asasi kids is something like the university's foster child so yah, you'll get more priviledge to enter UKM in the future, maybe. Whatever it is, you still have to be hardworking and struggle. :)

I had a hard time searching for information and experiences about Asasi Pintar. There are a few blogs talking about it and I am thankful, so thankful. At least I can get a glimpse of it. So, I decided I want to blog about my life there, to help other people understand about it. So that next year, maybe juniors can make my posts as a guide to understand what it is. And maybe if they are interested, they can apply for it n the UPU. Sharing is caring right? hihihh. This is my current decision la. I'm not sure if I can have time to blog or not. I want to study hard. Hehe. But I'll manage :D

That's all for now. Good luck to everyone who are pursuing their studies no matter where, in universities or politechnics or form six. Just have faith in yourself that everything will be OK. Spread love and positive ions okayy. haha. Byee people. :)

P/S: Sorry if there's any typo. I'm under medication and feeling drowsy, hihihh.

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DREAM VS REALITY

Hi people! Peace yo!

How is everybody? Fine? Great. Err. Not well? Sila pergi makan ubat straight away. Arahan daripada pihak berkuasa blog. Acece. Haha. Or you are feeling senget like me? That's totally cool. Welcome to my world! Haha.

Ok, what a weird opening. Intai sikit kat tepi tu. No wonder my followers is still stuck at 50 people. No wonder I am not motivated to write, aiyooo. *head down* Thank God I'm not that desperate, kihkih. If not, I dah tebalkan muka ni pergi leave link kat shoutbox people saying "Hi dear, please follow my blog." Erh, purlezzz. I don't blog to collect followers man. Write untuk puaskan hati kecil ni saja. *peace sign*



Actually, I am not really sure what is the purpose of this post. Maybe just to remind you all that this girl is still breathing and dreaming. Dream. Ok. Dream. I love my dream ok. So much that I am struggling to protect it. Sometimes some people just don't understand what does it feels like. I don't know why lah. I thought that people would understand that once you have a dream, you would almost do anything to reach it. Maybe some have gave up their dreams and thought that dreams are just dreams. Reality is different. Yes I know that. Dreams and reality are completely two different things, either from spelling or pronounciation. Ok Yen buat lawak lame. Gelak lah. Eh eh tak nak gelak? Tak pe tak pe. Tak nak sambung tulis post ni. Tsk tsk. :P

Okay. Back to the topic. Ehem ehem. Yah. Different things, totally. But for me. there is a link between them you see. A dream can become a reality. A dream can be upgraded to become a reality. Humm. However there is this catch. Without dreams, reality won't exist. Humm humm. Let's take an example. Do you know the Wright brothers? They use to think how birds can fly freely in the sky. So they started to think why can't man do the same. But of course we can't grow wings right. Now that is what I call dreaming.

The word dream isn't merely an imagination you had while sleeping. Dream also means something you think to achieved in the future you see. The Wright brothers dreamt that man can one day fly. Yah. That's their dream. Thanks to their dream, we traveling around the globe is possible. Thank you Wright brothers, for inspiring me about this post too :)  I do hope that one day, in the future, people would thank me too, for making something impossible turn into something possible.

I know that having a dream doesn't mean you can achieved it. You can't just sit around and wait for your dreams to just fall down. Attention here, dreams don't fall on top of you all okay. You still need to have this little thing called effort. Nak mohon biasiswa, PTPTN, UPU. That's effort man. You can't just sit around tanpa surf internet or tanya kawan or tanya cikgu right? You can't expect everything to be spoon-fed right? Eh hello. Semua dah besau-besau kan? :))) So remember this cute thingy called effort.



However at some times, due to some situations, a little evil thought invades our minds. The thought of giving up. Pernah tak? If tak pernah, sah la tu, you tak normal. Which planet are you from? May i have your alien identification number please? Haha. Just kidding! I say that the thought of giving up is completely normal because I am feeling it lately. It makes me down. It makes me sitting alone in the middle of the night, thinking. It makes me toss and turn on the bed. It makes me lazy to do anything including updating my cute gorgeous daebak beauuutifuuul blog. Ewww, gross. Haha. Sometimes I feel like I just want to go somewhere deserted, quiet and just scream out loud. huhu. well. The point is the thought of giving up is seriously a dangerous assasin like Nikita. Whoaaa. See how dangerous it is. So people, let's fight it! Haiyaaaaaa! :O *karate kick* Oh yeah! I won't give up on us. Even if the sky gets rough. :)

People, I know dreams are hard to reach but at least I want to try first. Takkan la due to these 'tiny' circumstances, I want to give up right? Try. I need to at least try. If can't then, no luck la. Well, I believe God will let things fall into their right places. If not now then eventually. Keep faith people. Fight for our dreams. Oh yes, fight for my dream. So, dream vs reality? Should we let the some not-so-nice reality stop us from  reaching our dreams? Lu pikir la sendiri!



Now, I dream that I can pass my JPJ test on the third trial. Haha. Yes, third. Sengaja nak tunjuk. Kihkih. See, I am dreaming again. Hope can achieve that dream tomorrow. To achieve that, maybe I should head to bed early tonight. Wake up fresh to face JPJ officer, kihkih. Wish me best of luck! :D

Till then, I'm a dreamer, are you?
Okay, byeee :)

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THE TURNING POINT: 210313

Hello people!! Whatssup?!

 Budak-budak awesome batch '95, result ape cite? :) Kalau gempak, congratsss! Kalau kurang gempak pun, congratss too! Pendek kata, congratss la semua! You all are the best! *tabik spring*

This post if obviously, um too obvious about SPM results. Sorry if the SPM result topic is lame for you or you don't even want to hear about the word SPM anymore. But I just can't help it. This is my current life now kan. Ehem ehem. Let the story begin. :P

I opened my eyes at six in the morning after listening to Big Bang screaming beside my ears. So lazy but I make myself wake up. I was thinking, why do I have to wake up so early today? The memory came straight away. Aumm. Fine. It's the red letter day. I had to follow my sister to school because I won't have transport if I want to be at school later on. So, better be early huh? After all, can hang out with Baz. Girls' talk.*winkwink* Hihih.

KIDNAPPED MAY'S DSLR FOR THE DAY :P

LOOK AT THE BEAUTIFUL SKY! XD

Then, everyone was looking by the time I got to school. Okay. I started to be uncomfortable. Still, like Cikgu Romlah said, maintain ayu tak kira what condition you are in. Haha. Fine. Waited not quite patiently for Baz adn finally she arrived. Then, walk, walk, and we ran into some teachers. Ohno. Don't get me wrong. It's not that we don't want to see our teachers but I am kind of freaked out to think about their hopes on us every time I see their faces. Then, found a nice place to sit. We talked, laughed and people started to arrive. Then, teman Lina to send her textbooks, books etc. Then, we gathered in front of the library. It was past ten o'clock already. Which means that we can check our results using SMS, if we want. I didn't dare too, have a weak heart, hihih. 

RUNSING TIME :P

Not long after that, saw PKP's car came into the our viem and enter the parking. Everyone was kind of screaming a little I think. Haha. The result is here already. Humm. Great. Then, my mom came and I was like whoa, freaking out. And we err, let's skip that part lah. It's private and confidential. :P

AWAN-AWAN YG SUPER COMEL!

After that, we are asked to enter the hall. I bet everyone's heart was beating fast! What to do. Some people still haven't know their results. After speeches and speeches adn stories about kasut adidas and fipper *wekk*, the time is here. The teacher started to announce the result. People were clapping, sobbing, shouting, smiling, cheering, crying and 'speechlessing'. I think for me I'd rather not watch the moment. Some moments were heartbreaking. People started questioning why why why. I also don't know how how how. Tapi I sedih sebab kadang-kadang I takut yang I bukan seorang kawan yang baik. I am very sorry okay.*lap air mata*

YOUNG LADIES YG AYU SEDUNIA XD

People often say your result is something that you deserve. I have been hearing that a lot since yesterday and until this moment when I'm typing this post. Sow your seed and reap your wheat. How much wheat you get depends on how much you sow your seed. Maybe it is true. Maybe it is not. I think it depends on you yourself to think wether it is true for you or not. Mungkin you hate it when people ask you why why why you tak dapat result yang cun and meletop. I myself don't tolerate this kind of attitude. Let them think lah what they want to think. SPM is not that easy path to deal okay. Deep down inside, we just stay calm and know that we have done our best.

Yesterday when watching the news, my heart was sort of torn a bit. 15793 students obtains straight A's. 481 received all A+'s. Scary. Where am I? I didn't and can't continue watching the SPM news after that. I realised that I was stupid. Yah, stupid is the word, to think that my result is bad. Humans are never really contended, do we? If you get a few A's, then you want more A's. If you have more A's, then you want straight A's. If you have straight A's, then you want straight A+'s. If you have straight A+'s, you want to be among the top twenty nation scorers. If you are in top twenty, you want to be the number one scorer of Malaysia. OMG. What attitude are we having. Don't compare yourself with someone better, compare yourself with someone less unfortunate. You will feel better.

DEAR, THANK GOD FOR WHAT WE GET. 
BERSYUKURLAH :)

Let's say that you think you suck in SPM. You cicir one A ke, you tak dapat A ke. You malu dengan result you sampai orang lain tanya berapa you dapat pun you tak nak cakap pun tak ape. It's fine. People always think that I might not understand but I do, seriously. I have been there too. Life is like a rollercoaster right? Sometimes you are at the top, sometimes you are at the bottom.You see, no matter what is your result is, your life has to go on. You still have to eat, sleep. watch tv. tweet. open FB and of course layan Korean dramas. Hakhaks, just to lighten the mood! :P You and I, which equals to we, need to move on. We are still young peeps. Ingat tak budak-budak 5 Alfa 2012? What did we write with colourful chalks on the blackboard in front?

"WE CAN'T STOP, WE DON'T STOP UNTIL WE REACH THE TOP (BECAUSE WE ARE YOUNG)"

 Life is still a long way. Don't give up peeps. But if you have any problems moving on, consult somebody or even me. Text ke call ke. I don't mind. I will try to fix you, because YOU ARE MY KAWAN.



Oh, kepada my cikgu-cikgu semua, terima kasih banyak banyak untuk segalanya. Yapp, untuk segala-galanya. And kepada my parents and family. thanks so much for being my backbone all this time. Love you lots. And kepada kawan semua, thanks too, for everything. Okay, tak tahu nak cakap ape dah. Nanti banjir pulak kat blog nih.

Okay, congrats to all again!
K byeeee :)

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